The Oscar-nominated star who captivated the world with his performance in Juno finally shares his truth.
“Can I kiss you?” It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he’d carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back.
With Juno’s massive success, Elliot became one of the world’s most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare.
As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels, and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do, until enough was enough. Full of behind the scenes details and intimate interrogations on sex, love, trauma, and Hollywood, Pageboy is the story of a life pushed to the brink. But at its core, this beautifully written, winding journey of what it means to untangle ourselves from the expectations of others is an ode to stepping into who we truly are with defiance, strength, and joy.

2008年，佩吉因演出電影《鴻孕當頭》一炮而紅，
才21歲便入圍奧斯卡最佳女主角獎，從此開啟好萊塢大門。
從《X戰警》、諾蘭《全面啟動》，到伍迪艾倫《愛上羅馬》，
觀眾開始在商業大片中看見佩吉兼具魅力和故事性的身影。
越靠近鎂光燈中心，身後的陰影就越深
佩吉4歲時，就意識到自己跟其他女孩不太一樣，
年幼的他經常問母親，自己可不可以「當男生」？
求學期間，他屢屢因為性別氣質而遭同儕霸凌；
事業走紅後，業界人士還老是告誡他不可公開出櫃。
當一名電影巨星當眾羞辱佩吉，無人跳出來阻止；
當其他男演員身穿T恤和牛仔褲出席首映會，
同樣衣著輕便的佩吉竟被迫套上洋裝，只因他是「女生」。
在大銀幕後，隱瞞與否定都讓佩吉身心交瘁，深受憂鬱症折磨。
人生的跨越，是對自己誠實、對他人坦承
直到2014年，佩吉參加人權戰線（Human Rights Campaign）論壇，
首度公開自己是酷兒，此舉不只獲得讚賞，也招來了謾罵。
面對無止境的惡意，他不屈服，反而說：
「那是我這輩子為自己做過最重要的事情。
無論出櫃是否以另一種方式將自己暴露在外，
進而變得更加脆弱，全都值得。」
過去，他是一名「女演員」，被好萊塢的標準禁錮，
深陷追尋夢想與隱藏自我之間的掙扎……
但佩吉持續拼湊完整的自己，誠實面對心之所向，
33歲，他終於宣布自己是跨性別者，發出真正的聲音。
脫去二元框架，你我都是獨一無二的存在
在這本自傳中，佩吉回憶童年及青少年時期如何摸索自己的性向和性別，
揭露他在好萊塢拍片遇見的人事物，他曾經歷的美好愛戀和辛酸失去，
以及他如何接納自己、也與家人和解的漫漫過程。
「在這個世界上做一個人意味著什麼？
我們都是相互聯繫的，我們都分擔著痛苦，
在自己的小盒子裡掙扎。」
佩吉的文字，具有一股貼近人心的柔軟力量，
彷彿你正和他一同細數最初對自己的認識、對愛的悸動、對夢想的期盼，
並慢慢從生命沉積的傷痛、從別人賦予的框架中走出來，
跨越了二元，生命其實充滿無限的可能性。
《佩吉男孩》，寫給所有正走在自我探尋這條路上的人，
在本書中，你會發現無論自己多麼不符合旁人眼光，你其實沒那麼古怪。
你並不孤單，而是值得平等完整的愛。

This program is read by the author.

#1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER

"Searing, deeply moving, and incredibly poignant... This isn’t simply a book on what it means to be trans, it’s about what it means to be human." —Alok Vaid-Menon

"Actor Elliot Page, who starred in the movie JUNO, gives an emotional, intimate performance of his gorgeous memoir... He narrates these memories with an openness that will make listeners feel like they're right there with him. It's the quiet rawness of his voice that makes this audiobook so moving. This performance hardly feels like a performance at all. If you listen to one celebrity memoir this year, make it this one."- AudioFile

NAMED A MOST ANTICIPATED BOOK by Salon, The Week, Elle, Bustle, and more.

Full of intimate stories, from chasing down secret love affairs to battling body image and struggling with familial strife, Pageboy is a love letter to the power of being seen. With this evocative and lyrical debut, Oscar-nominated star Elliot Page captures the universal human experience of searching for ourselves and our place in this complicated world.

“Can I kiss you?” It was two months before the world premiere of Juno , and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he’d carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back.

With Juno’s massive success, Elliot became one of the world’s most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare.

As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels, and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do. Until enough was enough.

The Oscar-nominated star who captivated the world with his performance in Juno finally shares his story in a groundbreaking and inspiring memoir about love, family, fame — and stepping into who we truly are with strength, joy and connection.

A Macmillan Audio production from Flatiron Books.

THE INSTANT NATIONAL BESTSELLERWinner of the 2023 Libby Book Award for Best Memoir and Autobiography The Oscar-nominated star who captivated the world with his performance in Juno finally shares his truth.“Can I kiss you?” It was two months before the world premiere of Juno, and Elliot Page was in his first ever queer bar. The hot summer air hung heavy around him as he looked at her. And then it happened. In front of everyone. A previously unfathomable experience. Here he was on the precipice of discovering himself as a queer person, as a trans person. Getting closer to his desires, his dreams, himself, without the repression he’d carried for so long. But for Elliot, two steps forward had always come with one step back.With Juno’s massive success, Elliot became one of the world’s most beloved actors. His dreams were coming true, but the pressure to perform suffocated him. He was forced to play the part of the glossy young starlet, a role that made his skin crawl, on and off set. The career that had been an escape out of his reality and into a world of imagination was suddenly a nightmare.As he navigated criticism and abuse from some of the most powerful people in Hollywood, a past that snapped at his heels, and a society dead set on forcing him into a binary, Elliot often stayed silent, unsure of what to do, until enough was enough. Full of behind the scenes details and intimate interrogations on sex, love, trauma, and Hollywood, Pageboy is the story of a life pushed to the brink. But at its core, this beautifully written, winding journey of what it means to untangle ourselves from the expectations of others is an ode to stepping into who we truly are with defiance, strength, and joy.