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大裂谷:美丽的非洲心脏 (2010) 豆瓣
The Great Rift: Africa's Wild Heart
10.0 (6 个评分) 演员: Hugh Quarshie
【内容简介】
东非大裂谷自红海至赞比西河口,连绵三千里,从太空都能看到。这里是多姿多彩的地方,有喷发的火山、覆盖着森林的高山、美丽的峡谷、广袤的草原、巨大的平湖和河流,是鳄鱼、河马、狮子、大象、火烈鸟和非洲人的家园。BBC采用最新的高清摄影技术,探讨了形式东非大裂谷的地质力量,展现世界上野生动物品种最多的地貌。
Visible from space, Africa's Great Rift Valley runs three thousand miles from the Red Sea to the mouth of the Zambezi. It's a diverse terrain of erupting volcanoes, forest-clad mountains, spectacular valleys, rolling grasslands, huge lakes and mighty rivers, and is home to crocodiles, hippos, lions, elephants, flocks of flamingos and a diversity of indigenous peoples.
Using state-of-the-art high definition filming techniques, this series investigates the geological forces which shaped East Africa's Great Rift, and which make it one of the world's most wildlife-rich landscapes.
Part 1: Fire
The valley is the product of deep-seated geological forces which have spewed out a line of cloud-wreathed volcanoes stretching from Ethiopia to Tanzania. Their peaks provide a refuge for East Africa's most extraordinary wildlife, including newly discovered and previously unfilmed species which have evolved surprising survival strategies to cope with their challenging mountain environment.
Part 2: Water
The Great Rift Valley channels a huge diversity of waterways - rivers, lakes, waterfalls, caustic springs and coral seas - spanning from Egypt to Mozambique. Some lake and ocean deeps harbour previously unseen life-forms, while caustic waters challenge life to the extreme. But where volcanic minerals enrich the Great Rift's waterways, they provide the most spectacular concentrations of birds, mammals and fish in all Africa.
Part 3: Grass
The Great Rift Valley provides the stage for an epic battle between trees and grass - its course influenced by volcanic eruptions, landscape and rainfall. On its outcome rests the fate of Africa's great game herds. In the Rift's savannas, grazers and their predators struggle to outwit each other, forcing one group of primates to develop a social system that paved the way for the evolution of mankind.
迁徙的鸟 (2001) TMDB 豆瓣 Eggplant.place
Le peuple migrateur
9.2 (318 个评分) 导演: 雅克·贝汉 / 雅克·克鲁奥德 演员: 雅克·贝汉
其它标题: Il popolo migratore / Le peuple migrateur
当鸟儿用羽翼去实现梦想,翱翔在我们永远无法凭借自身企及的天空,人类又该赋予他们怎样的赞叹呢?
“鸟的迁徙是一个关于承诺的故事,一种对于回归的承诺。”雅克·贝汉以这样一句话带我们踏上了鸟与梦飞行之旅。毫无疑问,[迁徙的鸟]直接界定了世界顶级纪录片“获取真实”的标准——前后共600多人参与拍摄,历时3年多、耗资4000多万美元,景地遍及全球50多个国家和地区,记录胶片长达460多公里。这部动用了17个世界上最优秀的飞行员和两个科学考察队的电影甫一出世,就引起轰动。短短三个星期内就有250多万法国人为它走进影院,飞越1200公里的大天鹅对生命的坚持,在漫天风沙中追寻出路的沙丘鹤、在冰天雪地下与海鸦对抗到底的企鹅……尽管当中也有失败气馁,也有悬崖边的木头木脑,也有来自人类贪欲的窥视。
除了简单的说明,整部影片不再有言语。本片的主角是憨态可掬,形态各异的鸟。他们带我们飞过大海,飞过雪原,飞过高山;他们用振动的羽翼向我们诠释飞翔,诠释执着,诠释温情,诠释生命。
哈利·波特系列的50个精彩瞬间 (2011) 豆瓣
50 Greatest Harry Potter Moments
9.0 (177 个评分) 导演: 克里斯·希尔 演员: 罗彼·考特拉尼 / 丹尼尔·雷德克里夫
其它标题: 50 Greatest Harry Potter Moments / 哈利·波特系列的50个最伟大瞬间
2011年的夏天,《哈利·波特与死亡圣器(下)》在全球上演,这盛大的历史时刻同时宣布了长达10年的哈利·波特电影系列的终结。从此一个时代一去不复返,留在人们心间的确实久久无法忘怀的复杂回忆。在终结篇上映两周后,英国ITV电视台推出了纪录片《哈利·波特经典50幕》,遴选了该系列(前7部电影)50个最为精彩、令人难忘的场景,其中包括飞行汽车、列车上的摄魂怪、猫头鹰送信、三兄弟传说、波特的初吻等镜头,更有J·K·罗琳、丹尼尔·雷德克里夫、艾玛·沃森、鲁伯特·格林特、詹森·艾萨克等小说和电影的主创人员讲述影片拍摄背后的故事。
这便是哈利·波特——那个陪伴许多孩子一起长大的男孩——送给影迷最后的礼物。
约翰·列侬的理想世界 (1988) 豆瓣
Imagine: John Lennon
9.2 (73 个评分) 导演: 安德鲁·索特 演员: 约翰·列侬 / 小野洋子
其它标题: Imagine: John Lennon / 約翰連儂的理想世界
本部描写摇滚史上最伟大音乐家之一约翰·温斯顿·列侬的纪录片《约翰列侬的理想世界》,以超过240小时的电影及录影片段,及穿插其中的36首经典名曲,讲述着这位摇滚乐坛有史以来最富传奇色彩的灵魂人物。
影片收录了多段未被公开的私人视频片段,扑捉记录下列侬这位在音乐世界中狂放不羁才华横溢的天才,在生活中的多重侧面。这些精彩珍贵的视频镜头在36首传唱度极高的经典歌曲中,道出了列侬这位乐坛巨匠背后鲜为人知的故事。
柏林墙的野兔 (2009) TMDB 豆瓣
Królik po berlinsku
8.8 (5 个评分) 导演: Bartosz Konopka
其它标题: Królik po berlinsku / 柏林墙边的兔子
多少世纪以来,野兔在欧洲各地繁衍生息。第二次世界大战结束后,因粮食匮乏,柏林市民在已化为废墟的波茨坦广场上,僻地开田,种植菜蔬果腹,于是很多饥肠辘辘的野兔,也都来这里,伺机饱餐一顿。
南太平洋 (2009) 豆瓣
South Pacific
9.5 (57 个评分) 导演: 马克·布朗罗 / Chiara Bellati 演员: 本尼迪克特·康伯巴奇 Benedict Cumberbatch / Mike Rowe
1.海洋岛屿
它们非同的隔绝产生了地球上其它地方所没有的一些最稀奇、惊人和不安定的生存例子,从撕扯掉椰子的大蟹,到把猎物钉在匕首般爪子上食肉毛虫。
人类文明同样不同。五旬节岛上的人们从高高的木制脚手架上纵身鱼跃来庆祝他们每年的收获,只用丛林藤本植物来阻止坠落。
在微小的恩浮塔岛,或许是地球上最僻远的人类社会,当地人为了生存完全依赖他们的庄稼和捕猎。
2.漂流者
在南太平洋并没有荒岛这一回事。它们也许是地球上最偏僻,但2万余个岛屿个个都被开拓了,从新几内亚,天堂鸟的家园,部落野蛮的成人仪式将年轻的战士变成鳄鱼人,到斐济,法属玻利尼西和夏威夷。
这是最后漂流者的故事,从咸水鳄和巨鳗到冠鬣蜥和怪蛙,为了成功不顾一切到达数千哩远的岛屿。这些旅程是很好的功绩。据估计每6万年才有一个物种到达夏威夷。难以相信,这么多的开拓者到达这些受到大自然像龙卷风和海啸接二连三粗暴打击的岛屿。
南太平洋首次人类,玻利尼西亚人的航行,难以忘怀。这些旅程的确是最伟大的探索行动,甚至可以断言,他们永远地改变了南太平洋的大自然。
3.蔚蓝大海
大部分地区是偏僻的,蓝色的旷野的南太平洋是海洋沙漠。海洋中生活着许多动物,它们中有鲨鱼,鲸鱼和海龟,不得不行进异常的距离去生存。虎鲨航行数百哩去享用刚会飞翔的信天翁幼雏的盛宴,每年,抹香鲸从南太平洋的一边旅行另一边去觅食和交配。它们的旅行以悲剧为结局。
但南太平洋并不全是沙漠。新西兰超级富饶的海岸支撑着庞大的特技专家-海豚群,它的珊瑚礁是地球上最丰富多样的,没有几个地方的野生动物比古怪的加拉帕戈斯群岛更丰富的,是热带企鹅和冲浪高手海狮的发源地。
片中始终贯穿着最大的海难故事-令人鼓舞的莫比·迪克的事件(白鲸记)。揭示出在这片看似蔚蓝的大海里巨大的生存挑战。
4.海洋火山
目击地球上最大的海洋中的岛屿出生,成长和死亡。数百万年的历程浓缩在1小时,展现海底火山爆发时难以忘目的影像,熔岩流在海浪下面爆炸。路和房子被熔岩流埋葬。从狂暴开始显露无比丰富的珊瑚礁供养着大群的灰真鲨和大蝠鲼。
南太平洋升起的陆地同样为一些非常陌生的动物带来生命,从能在热带冰雪中兴旺发达的吸血虫,依靠火山泉孵蛋的塚雉,到被珊瑚山截留的大群水母群。
5.奇异的岛屿
在南太平洋的孤岛上有着无战斗力的鹦鹉,翻地觅食的蝙蝠,大石龙子和在树上的袋鼠。野生动物以奇怪的方式演化。在岛上生存可能要付出高代价,对于新来的物种,全都想挣脱这地狱。这里展现出一个难题:为什么动物能完美的适应了岛屿生活,轻易地放弃了灵魂?答案由生存在新西兰海岸外的小岛上,某些不太可能存在的动物来揭示。
人类历史上的活动区域进一步表明,无论它曾是否田园般的,南太平洋岛屿上的生命从未远离过灾难。
6.脆弱的天堂
南太平洋仍相对健康,鱼群丰富,但这是个脆弱的天堂。国际捕鱼渔船为鲨鱼,信天翁和金枪鱼敲响了严重的警钟,对这片美丽的大海还有其它的暗藏危险。这一集注视怎么来维护海洋及其野生动物。
从该地区人类历史的诸多迹象表明,田园般的,充满生机的南太平洋从未远离过灾难。
面条之路 (2008) 豆瓣
누들로드
8.2 (19 个评分) 导演: KBS 演员: 谭荣辉
“面条”是一种简单美味而又营养健康的食物,又是餐桌上最常见的主食之一。本部纪录片就是一路追寻面条的发展历程,让观众领略到各个地区不同的自然环境和文化差异。第一集:古老食物的诞生;第二集:面条东游记;第三集:意大利面的起源;第四集:连接亚洲人的厨房;第五集:人类的第一份快餐;第六集:食面八方;第七集:意气风发。以其令人垂涎欲滴的“面面”俱到,向我们讲述“面”传千里背后的独特面条文化,给我们“面”目一新的视觉享受。
这部纪录片荣获第36届韩国广播大奖中数项殊荣。《面条之路》由筹备至拍摄历时三年,摄制组走遍中国大陆、乌兹别克斯坦、韩国、日本、越南、泰国、不丹、土耳其、意大利等欧亚十几个国家,以各种确凿的考古证据和文献资料,全面展示各地面食文化。
达尔文的世界 (2009) 豆瓣
Darwin's Brave New World
导演: Wendy Hughes / Socratis Otto
其它标题: Darwin's Brave New World
Featuring a superb cast and commentators including David Suzuki, Richard Dawkins, Jared Diamond and Iain McCalman, this is the story of how four young voyagers changed our world – forever. The epic adventures of Charles Darwin, Joseph Hooker, Thomas Huxley and Alfred Russel Wallace would revolutionise science, turn society on its head and give birth to an extraordinary theory. Charles Darwin's experiences in the Southern Hemisphere, and particularly in Australasia, convinced him that everything he'd been told about life on earth might not be true. On his return to England, his incendiary idea – evolution by means of natural selection – grew into an obsession. In this brilliant dramatised series we meet the man, his family, and the colleagues who supported him through years of illness, isolation, agonizing self-doubt and religious crisis. We gain a glimpse into the courage and tenacity it took to change the way we understand our world and our place in it.
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人类星球 (2011) 豆瓣 TMDB
Human Planet Season 1 所属 : 人类星球
9.7 (77 个评分) 导演: Tom Hugh-Jones / Tuppence Stone 演员: 约翰·赫特
BBC8集大型电视系列片 - Human Planet (人类星球),探讨人与自然的关系。8集节目分别探讨极地、山区、海洋、丛林、草原、河流、沙漠和城市的人类活动。世界一流的自然与人类专家以及摄影师,从空中、陆地和水下抓拍珍贵镜头。BBC摄制组前往世界80个地方,抓拍了从未在电视屏幕上出现过的罕见精彩的人类活动。
了解宇宙如何运行 (了解宇宙是如何运行的 第一季) (2010) 豆瓣
How the Universe Works Season 1 所属 : 了解宇宙如何运行
9.8 (14 个评分) 导演: Lorne Townend / Peter Chinn 演员: 加来道雄
宇宙是怎样形成的?宇宙是怎样运行的?这些都是人类经常提出的问题。作为宇宙的一分子,我们都希望可以对这个神秘国度有更深入的认识。《解读宇宙》将为天文爱好者拆解种种谜团,节目将会探究宇宙的基本要素,发掘连串迷人的天文现象,以及解释其成因。节目旁述Mike Rowe将带领观众了解宇宙的结构、太阳系、银河系等。《解读宇宙》与观众一同探索这个奥妙神秘、浩瀚无边的宇宙国度。
The Britpop Story 豆瓣
演员: John Harris / Justine Frischmann
The Britpop Story was a documentary aired on BBC Four about the Britpop movement which occurred in Britain during the 1990s. The show was hosted by John Harris, who interviewed Elastica frontwoman Justine Frischmann and Louise Wener of the band Sleeper.
The show started with a look at grunge music and how British music was at an all-time low. It charted with the development of Blur, Suede, Elastica and Sleeper. Harris recalled the time when he was at the "Good Mixer" pub in Camden Town, London with Noel and Liam Gallagher, on a "sightseeing" trip, when future rival Graham Coxon was there. There was further information on other Britpop groups, such as Menswear. There was a focus of Tony Blair and his support of Oasis, as well as showing the decline of the movement.
日本海啸是如何发生的 (2011) 豆瓣
Japan's Tsunami How It Happened
演员: 马克·斯特朗 / Roger Bilham
其它标题: Japan's Tsunami How It Happened / Japan Tsunami: How It Happened
本片深入探究了给日本造成重创的地震与海啸背後的科学原理,本期节目将带领观众们随着地理学教授Roger Bilham的旅程,深入到震後仅数天後的日本。
毕加索的秘密 (1956) 豆瓣 TMDB
Le mystère Picasso
8.6 (28 个评分) 导演: 亨利-乔治·克鲁佐 演员: 巴勃罗·毕加索
其它标题: Le mystère Picasso / 神秘的毕加索
《毕加索的秘密》(Le Mystère Picasso,亨利—乔治·克鲁佐,1956年|80分钟|35毫米|黑白与彩色|有声)以悬疑片的手法记录了西班牙画家毕加索(1881—1973)的一次作画过程。1956年盛夏,在法国南部海滨城市尼斯的一间画室里,面对难耐的酷热及聚光灯的强烈辐射,毕加索兴致昂然地挥笔作画:生动的线条在画纸上迅速游走和变形,一朵花先是变成一条鱼,接着变成一个美人,然后变成一只公鸡,最后变成了牧神。本片导演亨利—乔治·克鲁佐(Henri-Georges Clouzot,1907—1977)以拍摄悬疑片著称(据说希区柯克眼中的竞争对手只有一人,他就是克鲁佐),代表作有《乌鸦》(1943)、《恐惧的代价》(1953)等。克鲁佐在拍摄这部美术纪录片时,放弃了当时流行的传记式或说教式拍摄模式。本片虽然也有很多悬念,但不是故事片常见的戏剧性悬念,而是画家的创作过程本身,千变万化的创作过程给观众带来了扣人心弦的感觉。法国电影理论家安德烈·巴赞从这部影片中看到了电影艺术自身的特质,即只有电影能够在瞬间截获并表现时间的流动(巴赞为本片写作了影评《〈毕加索的秘密〉:一部伯格森式的影片》,见安德烈·巴赞《电影是什么》,中国电影出版社1987年版,第204—214页)。本片以独特的方式记录了毕加索创作20余幅画作的详细过程,观看本片成为近距离接触这位绘画大师的最有效途径。本片拍竣后,毕加索将拍片过程中所画的20余幅画悉数毁弃,因此本片显得更加珍贵。此外,本片摄影师克劳德·雷诺阿是著名画家奥古斯特·雷诺阿的孙子、著名电影导演让·雷诺阿的侄子。本片荣获1956年戛纳电影节评委会大奖。
世界游戏革命 (2010) 豆瓣
世界ゲーム革命
8.7 (12 个评分)
其它标题: 世界ゲーム革命 / Game Revolution
NHK纪录片:随着世界游戏人口的扩大,游戏开发正在变成一个巨大的产业。 在美国这个世界上最大的游戏市场,一些重要的作品在好莱坞大导演的参与下制作完成,并最终超过了电影的票房收入。 此外,通过利用其巨大的资本和先进的技术,彻底分析什么使游戏变得有趣并为每个国家定制,它正在迅速增加其在全球市场的份额。
日本在全球市场上的王牌是其两大支柱--动画和游戏的融合。 吉卜力工作室是日本的骄傲,它的第一个动画游戏引起了新的轰动,现在正在进行反击。 经济产业省还成立了一个新的 "酷日本办公室",并将日本的流行文化,如动画和游戏,作为继汽车和家电之后的新出口产业的支柱。
在激烈的竞争中,一种以人体为界面的新游戏机已经公布,一个类似科幻小说的世界即将在游戏中诞生,在这个世界中,虚拟世界和现实融合在一起,人们的感觉得到了扩展。 这都是为了让事情变得更有趣、更愉悦、更现实。 本片探讨了快速发展的游戏开发前沿及其未来,应用了最先进的科学甚至军事技术。
不为人知的英国 (2010) 豆瓣
Secret Britain
演员: Matt Baker / Julia Bradbury
Matt Baker and Julia Bradbury are on the road north on the third leg of their epic adventure to unlock Secret Britain. Julia takes a trip into the stunning underground limestone world beneath Yorkshire, while Matt relives childhood memories as he explores a secret ancient woodland on the Durham coast.
—Written by Anonymous
英国铁路纪行 第一季 (2010) 豆瓣
Great British Railway Journeys Season 1 所属 : 英国铁路纪行
8.7 (9 个评分) 导演: BBC 演员: 迈克尔·波蒂洛
1840年,一个人彻底改变了英国人的旅行方式,他的名字叫乔治-布莱德萧,其编写的火车指南鼓励了维多利亚时代的英国人乘火车进行旅行,对于每一站,他都会告诉大家该去哪里,去哪里参观以及在哪里住宿,现在,170后的今天,主持人将在全国范围内进行4段长途旅行,看看当年布莱德萧的英国如今变成了什么样子。
兰迪·波许教授的最后一课 (2007) 豆瓣
Randy Pausch's Last Lecture
9.5 (53 个评分) 演员: 兰迪·波许
其它标题: Randy Pausch's Last Lecture / 真正实现你的童年梦想
兰迪·弗雷德里克·波许(Randy Frederick Pausch)是美国卡内基梅隆大学的计算机科学、人机交互及设计教授。2006年9月,他被诊断患有胰腺癌。尽管进行了手术和化疗,他还是于2007年8月被告知癌细胞已经转移至肝臟及脾脏,至多可以再存活3到6个月。
美国很多高校在资深教授退休前都会为他们安排讲授一堂面向全校学生的“最后一课”,表达学校师生对其的崇敬和感激,让教授为自己的教学生涯划上一个完美的句号。卡内基梅隆大学将其命名为“旅程(Journey)”,希望演讲者能和听众一起分享自己的个人或学术旅程。波许虽然还没有准备退休,但是鉴于他的病情,他在2007年9月18日做了题为:“真正实现你的童年梦想”的最后一课,这也是“旅程”系列的第一课。
2007年9月21日,兰迪·波许被ABC世界新闻列为“本周人物”,他也得到了国际媒体的关注。波许的“最后一课”成了互联网上的热点,在发布一个月内被收看超过一百万次,他出版的《最后一课》一书则成为当前亚马逊网站上最为畅销的书籍之一。
以下摘引李开复在《引领你的一生》中对《最后一课》的一段评价:
“前不久,我的同学兰迪·波许教授在我们的母校卡内基·梅隆大学做了一场风靡全美的讲座,题目是《真正实现你的童年梦想》。该讲座的视频在不同视频网站上被点播了上千万次。《华尔街日报》把这次讲座称为“一生难觅的最后的讲座”。在美国一些高校里,“最后的讲座”是著名教授退休前的最后一课。兰迪教授并没有准备退休,但是他患了胰腺癌,只剩下几个月的生命。这次讲座对他来说,竟真的是他一生中“最后的讲座”了。
我的亲友纷纷在电子邮件中向我推荐兰迪教授的此次讲座。我和女儿一起看了讲座的视频。看完后,我们感动地含着眼泪,同时又因为感悟和兴奋而相视一笑。我们像每一个听过讲座或看过讲座视频的人一样,激动的心情久久不能平息……”
达尔文的恶梦 (2004) 豆瓣
Le Pesadilla de Darwin
导演: 于贝尔·苏佩 演员: 于贝尔·苏佩
其它标题: Le Pesadilla de Darwin / Darwin's Nightmare
这个故事审视探讨了欧洲对非洲的幕后枪支交易——俄罗斯飞行员把枪支送往非洲,之后把飞机装满鱼飞回欧洲。
这种贸易的危害和后果之一就是武器不断流入非洲大陆所引起的暴力和战争。
如果这个世界的规则是像达尔文所说的“适者生存”,那赞助枪支贸易的资本家就脚踏着非洲人的利益站到了进化阶梯的高端。达尔文主义的鲜明例子。
就像维多利亚湖鲈鱼可预见的灭绝和维多利亚湖自身的死亡一样,非洲人正处于极度的危险之中,尽管他们在他们唯一懂得的途径中谋求生存。
The larger scope of the story explores the gun trade to Africa that takes place under the covers -- Russian pilots fly guns into Africa, then fly fish back out to Europe. The hazards and consequences of this trade are explored, including the pan-African violence propagated by constant flow of weapons into the continent. If it is a "survival of the fittest" world, as Darwin concluded, then the capitalist interests that fund the gun runners are climbing the evolutionary ladder on the backs of the Africans in this stark Darwinian example. Much like the foreseeable extinction of the Lake Victoria perch, and death of Lake Victoria itself, the Africans are in grave jeopardy, even as they survive in the only ways they know how.
平行世界,平行生命 (2007) 豆瓣
Parallel Worlds, Parallel Lives
7.8 (11 个评分) 导演: BBC 演员: Mark Oliver Everett
其它标题: Parallel Worlds, Parallel Lives
英国Eels乐队的一名歌手Mark Oliver Everett将为你讲述他的天才父亲的传奇悲剧人生和神奇经历。他的父亲曾在24岁发表了一篇"多重世界"的物理论文,震惊了全世界,但物理学界并不买账,他的父亲只能放弃了量子物理学。现在这件事被认为是物理学界最严重的悲剧之一,他的理论如此超前以至于当时的人无法理解,50年后的今天人们才证明了他的理论...
Singer Mark Oliver Everett - E from the Eels - explains why he made a film about his brilliant, tragic father
Shortly after my father died the phone started ringing. My father was Hugh Everett III. When he was 24 he wrote a ground-breaking thesis about physics most commonly known as "the many worlds theory". It challenged the accepted notion of how the world works in such a huge way, stating that there were actually countless versions of ourselves splitting off and going through as many different scenarios as you could imagine, and the physics powers that be (Albert Einstein, Niels Bohr) were having none of this. They weren't about to let a 24-year-old knock their faces off the Mount Rushmore of physics. Getting no encouragement, my father gave up on quantum physics.
It's now considered to be one of the greatest tragedies in physics that my father wasn't taken seriously. He was so ahead of his time that there weren't even ways to prove his theory mathematically, but now, 50 years later, there are. And it checks out quite well.
I knew this day was coming ever since the phone started ringing in 1982. It was always some "physics groupie" asking for my mother so they could grill her for information about my father. And, as time went on and technology caught up with him, the interest kept mounting.
I'm a singer and songwriter in a rock band called Eels. I never knew much about physics and my father was a complete mystery to me, even though I lived in the same house with him for 18 or 19 years. He rarely spoke. He was an ever-present lump of flesh sitting at the dining room table every night writing out crazy calculations on a pad of paper. That's about all I saw of him.
When the BBC asked if I was interested in making a film, I jumped at the chance. I have tended to deal with my family by making them into little art projects. I made an album in 1998 called Electro-shock Blues that dealt extensively with my sister's and mother's deaths. While my sister's suicide note did indeed contain a passage about going off to meet our father in a parallel universe, I hadn't made anything that dealt with my father the way I had dealt with the rest of my family, and this was the way I liked to do it: make something that is therapeutic for me personally that, hopefully, can offer something for the rest of the world.
The idea made me both excited and uncomfortable. And the uncomfortable part was what made me know it was something I'd have to do. I didn't like the idea of opening up that world of pain and going back to Virginia and Washington DC, places where I can smell the dread in the air because of all the painful memories. But to get the chance to hang out with my father's college roommates, who are all still alive, friends and coworkers, was too interesting for me not to go through with. I knew I was going to learn a lot about both physics and my father. And I did.
The first few days of shooting were awkward and I felt pretty uptight. Then one day while I was being interviewed on camera about some painful experience, I heard Louise [Lockwood], the director, softly click her mouth and whisper, "Aw, E..." Suddenly I thought: "These people actually care about me." I then relaxed and probably started saying all sorts of things I would have been too guarded about before.
I was struck by what a tragedy my father's life was. He has contributed something huge to the world, but for him it was painful. How would you like to come up with something so mind-blowing about how the world works, confident that you knew it was true, but have no one support your view? It must have been the loneliest life, being the smartest guy in the room, just having to shut up and keep your thoughts to yourself while the regular chimps all chat away. I was determined to help to give him the day in the sun he never got when he was alive.
I spent a week at Princeton learning about physics and hanging out with my father's old friends. I did not inherit my father's gift for mathematics, and can barely calculate the tip after dinner, so it was a real challenge for me to be standing in front of blackboards learning about quantum physics. But I came to have a pretty good understanding of my father's theory. In Virginia I met some of my father's coworkers and even went inside the Pentagon (who knew security was so lax?).
It was a very difficult process for me, but when it was over I felt really glad that I had done it. It's not easy going back to a place you really don't want to go back to and opening boxes of memories. Particularly with a film crew following you, trying to make you cry ("How does that make you feel, E?"). I'd be really glad if I had a son do something like this for me some day, so I'd like to think that my dad is smiling down from some parallel universe and saying, "thanks".